Okay sistahs and brothahs I'm in quite a predicament. As you may know, I am very proud of who I am. I am a souljah in the struggle, and I am eager to learn all I can about my ancestors. BUT-...Mama, for some reason or another, doesn't feel the way I do.
I'm not saying she's bourgeois or anything, she's pretty down to earth, although she does cross the line sometimes when it comes to acting differently around white people. She's also the first to cap on a white person in a minute though.
But the main problem is her rejection of her ancestry, which absolutely kills me. She never wants to hear about what I've learned about Africa or other cultures. I watch alot of educational television, esp. National Geographic, and a couple times she came in while I was watching a special on an African tribe and said,
"I don't know what part of Africa my people were from, but it wasn't from there."
She acts so damn ignorant sometimes and I love my Mama don't get me wrong but it's so frustrating! She doesn't even like to be called African American because of the root word 'Africa'!!! I don't know what to do. She buys in to all the stereotypes..."Africa is all about AIDS...They're all cannibals..." She even says she wouldn't go there if someone paid her a million bucks because,
"I wouldn't make it out alive."
Then on the other hand, like I said, she continuously talks about reparations and-
"Guess I'm never getting my 40 acres and a mule."
It's always about the white man did this and the white man did that...how can she be so wishy-washy and westernized?
Can someone PLEASE give me some advice on how to approach the topic with her and make her understand? This is very important to me. I feel so detached from myself and my culture when my own mother denies it.