I love my friends, really I do.
And me & my friends go waaaay back.
Although I'm a very sociable person, I don't allow many people to get "close." I'm almost a walking contradiction. See, I'm what you'd call a very "approachable" person. I smile a lot so people take this as an open invitation.
My loyalties run deep. There's not much I wouldn't do for a friend, whether I agree with you or not, I'm on YOUR SIDE in spirit, no matter what. Well, almost no matter what.
If a friend doesn't have or feel a certain level of loyalty for me, it cuts deep. Maybe deeper than most folks because I'm so picky about who I allow in my space. It's almost scary [getting cut deeply that is *shivers*].
Sure, we all take a chance when we allow people into our lives, and unfortunately, sometimes, we're wrong about folks, and when we're wrong about folks--for me, it feels like I've wasted precious time & energy.
More importantly though, it hurts.