I did love him but only as a friend. Which is what we should have remained. I was VERY young and at that time had never experienced the true feelings of love. So, for most of the time I dated my ex husband, I thought that the feelings of friendly love I had toward him was what "the real thing" felt like. Of course, that was until I started to see more of Joe and began to feel things that I knew I could never feel for my ex husband.