Your welcome Koco, and I really meant it.
Also, I think that many, many African American feel frustration and even anger towards the African Americans out there that are just a big weight on the Black community, I know I have. But, then I have to think about how little I knew when I was young and that most of what I know now and have learned about our history in this country, African history, American politics, racism, the politics of psychological and social manipulation, etc., I had to search out that information and learn it on my own. Unfortunately, most African Americans that don't learn the true history of our people just can't always connect the dots. I also believe that our circumstance of history has left many of us in just survival mode, just going through the motions it takes to just live, let alone thrive or have anything left to share with others, be it emotionally or financially or intellectually.
May I ask, why you felt abandoned by Black people when you lost your son? The reason that I ask is that I know someone else who felt when they lost their son.